Alvin

2009-05-26T16:34:00.003+08:00

haven really blog for a long time,as there's nth much to blog about mundane routines in camp isn't it?

a belated thanks to those who wished me on my birthday ((: and thanks wen jie for swapping his guard duty with me so i could enjoy my birthday during nights out on the day itself (i was supposed to be doing guard duty on my birthday) went to Alp's house for the first time, but didn't stay very long as he had to book in earlier,so we went back together haha.

23rd May wasn't a pleasant day for me, cos i freaking missed Final Fantasy Distant Worlds concert thanks to NDP. my bro had bought the tickets 2mths ago...
little did i know that my rehersal segment was cancelled,and was attached to logistics shit instead. BOO
most of the time...wasn't really doing anything,waste of my time and worst of all..couldn't attend the concert... was really pissed that sparks will ignite me =/
up till now i still can't help but...sigh. im gonna regret this for life man

ystd met up with Calista to watch Angels and Demons. She'll be leaving for Australia to study for 3 years in 2weeks+ time )): damn i hate parting moments. im gonna miss her for sure...
the movie was quite nice in terms of it's effect,even though i didnt really understand certain stuffs which they mention, alrite...still able to get the picture...after that dined at Han's, met up with Calista's fren,Pris,who happen to be my ex-sec sch classmate's gf and another jc's fren. small world man! chatted for some time b4 heading home.

bored,im booking in soon =/

diedie have to do

2009-05-17T20:13:00.003+08:00

hello 19 (soon),byebye 18 coming 20.

im not really buying the idea of sacifising my saturdays...
whats the use of making up a monday,when i can get nobody out? since everybody's having work and stuffs. arrrg

i haven thought of anything to buy to pamper myself,haha.

this life is starting to get boring man, boo.

"if you don like to do this,but yet able to do it well...it well be..."
whatever,im forced into this, so im not taking in any bullshits

i need to get a life damn it!

2009-04-19T16:41:00.002+08:00

having a long weekend this week,in lieu of Good Fri,thus able to fish time out to blog

this week wasn't easy to get through,due to outfield training. man,i gt into hibernation mode,and managed to get through the 4days 3night eating only 2 full meals! all the other meals were either skipped or only consist of a few pieces of biscuits,or even only on a pack of cereals. Didn't know how i pulled through it, cos usually will be dying of hunger if i were to skip a meal haha.

everytime when i'm in camp,i just feel that i will have many things to do when im out, however, things proved otherwise. im always feeling at a loss,not knowing what to do haha.

my wallet is turning disastrous,i need a new one.

2009-04-05T11:24:00.002+08:00

finally... after long hours of chiong-ing

game is 100% completed!

now...for the next game...haven thot of any lol

2009-03-28T16:46:00.002+08:00

hello guys, im back home,from my first week in camp
a totally new environment for me, seriously, will tell you why if you ask me personally.
training wise...yea,pt slightly more demanding than back in BMT

the first 2 days in camp wasn't really easy for me to get over with. had to deal with ice breaking and stuffs,which i don really like. But the awkwardness was destroyed quickly,as bunkmates did not outcast us newcomers. they have been 5SIR since their first enlistment,thus naturally we'll feel inferior and outcasted,durh.

had to learn about 3 new weapons this week.

my bunk mates are totally crazy, as in,they really know how to enjoy themselves. tiredness from training doesn't seem to affect their morale at all. everynight without fail,there will be a bitching session and some...'bullying' session. it's really fun mixing around with them.

2009-03-20T23:27:00.001+08:00

posting:
5SIR Rifleman Bukit Panjang Camp

o man...i guess it's another challenge i'm gonna face..
another kind of BMT coming my way =/

2009-03-17T22:39:00.004+08:00

met joc at jurong east, headed down to Cheveron(SAF recreation centre)

joc wanted to get this white singlet,

which she couldn't tell me what it was online,and was having a hard time describing

finally,i understood what she wanted on the bus, a PTI shirt haha

o well...was wondering what she wanted it for. but it looks cool anyway,

as far as i can remember seeing the PTIs wearing it in tekong

alright...so we had a hard time finding the shirt,from the shelf, as most shirts were white,from

different units =_=

the bottomline is, there's always a staff available for assistance,just open your mouth and ask!
=_=

otherwise risk becoming like tortoises gasping for air,till your necks get long

but in the end,still manage to get the shirt,and joc seems delighted uh,mus wear it for me to see

sio

was pondering where to go after that... suddenly thot of fish-spa,as we've nvr tried it.

joc said there's one in AMK,and i rmb one of my frens telling me abt it as well...so we headed

there,but unfortunately,the shop is there no more - awww =( -

so we went to the arcade to play street basketball. ok i suck at it hahaha, *surrenders to joc*
(hey joc,look at this ok?)

headed to sumo house for our afternoon high tea(nah,it's early dinner)

chatted abit about....whatever haha

no,actually we were chatting throughout the journey

posting will be out this friday,hopefully wont get into chiongsua units alrite

2009-03-12T21:41:00.004+08:00

11th March 2009:
finally the day has come =) POP!
had 24km route-march the night before,till 7am today. had about an hr to bathe and stuffs,den prepared for the graduation parade at 10am

the grueling 3months wasn't easy to get through,but the friendship made was for life, will nvr forget the times where encouragements were offered, giving us the strength and courage to overcome the difficulties.

there's still a long way ahead, as ORD still seems to be somewhere out there.

parade ended near noon,and when i reach home,im thoroughly drained,due to fatigue.
slept throughout the afternoon. despite this, i was still tired, and had quite an early night

POP LORH ^_^

Falcon 01/09 Platoon 4 Section 1
gonna miss you guys man

12th March:
felt that i needed to get some serious shopping for clothings, as my closet has already been yawning for the 123413151 times at the same apparel it has been holding

first thing in my mind,bugis street, where they offer cheaper and certain nice clothings

after about 6 hours of walking,gt these stuffs..

shirt: $46.90 tie:$19.90(free when bought with this shirt and the spade t-shirt below)

pants:$29
belt:$9.95

T-shirt: $35.90
Vest with hooter: $59.90

T-shirts: 2 for $20

shoes: $55.90
socks:$4.90 each x2

total spent:$267.35

spent quite a bit, but yea,it's time that i get some new clothings, if not i'll be running out of ideas of what to wear each time i get out of my house =X

2009-02-21T21:41:00.002+08:00

gift from safra, one from wishlist down

and....

bought this a few weeks ago, <3
another item down from wishlist haha
(when will i fulfill no.1 on the list...)

no more boring bus rides and stuff haha

looking forward to POP but kind of sad as well. gonna miss all the shit i've gone through with my buddies in BMTC. tough but, the friendship is priceless
throwing the cap high up in the air!

to someone: at first i thought you were pitiful, with all the shits and stuff. but just within weeks,your true colour exposed, and im totally turned off by it.
why? cos you simply like to victimise yourself, followed by bragging your ideas and f-up attitude. pure recalcitrant,yawns.
you're one who simply uses your friends when in need of help,tossing them aside after you survived the ordeal, what a nice definition you have for "friends"
good luck anyway if you wanna live your life like this,im out of it already

2009-02-19T21:08:00.003+08:00

it has been ages since i blogged, b4 my enlistment into NS
time flies,and im gonna graduate from BMTC in just less than 3 weeks
i guess some must be wondering why am i able to blog on a weekday
(cos im having a high fever, thus able to book out in advance) but im feeling quite good today so i guess i will be able to resume normal training next week...

im quite sure 2 years of my life will be burnt and offered to NS, but there's nothing i can do about it, so i guess i LL have to accept it =/
can i request for more SAF allowance? i hardly have any savings,whatever comes in will be contributed to SG's economy!

i guess my passion for final fantasy is back again,thanks to FF(crisis core) and Dissidia FF
sad ending for FF(crisis core) though,although i knew Zack(main char) would die,but i didnt know he would die such a terrible death,kind of sad when completing the game >.<> save your time,save my time, and move on with life
sometimes i wonder what you stand to gain,when you cheat one's feelings.

-be truthful,at least for once

2008-12-06T21:32:00.005+08:00

yes, im back ^^

2 weeks after A'levels, the prom's here finally

for photo grabbing- please do so at friendster/facebook where the photos are not resized, photo's are not arranged in order

N.B. image heavy

overall the prom was kind of ok,though food wasn't up to expectation. Emcee was good in bringing up the mood and stuffs,did some crazy activities haha

everyone was taking that additonal photo. just hooking up anyone to take one (: which is nice
cameras were flashing,dance floor light blinding our eyes

post-prom: clubbing down at DBL-O
with Joc,Sharon,Marcus,Sophie,Adeline,Jia
Jie,Ryan,Gabriel,Shirley,Gisela,Dawn,Eugene and Andrea

it was totally crazy man, Joc's fren jester and sean ordered f lamming and wanted Gabriel the Birthday boy to drink it,haha
on top of that,he ordered martell,80 Tequila pops,40 long island(nt quite sure),some were offered to us hahah

rocked out at the dancefloor till 3am,where some of us were alrdy half drunk or dead,shall nt mention who =)

everyone parted, whereas me,joc,ryan,jia jie and gabriel walked down to have bak ku teh for supper

sat down there till about close to 5am,and Sean cabbed back to fetch joc home,while the rest of us guys walked all the way till Outram park MRT,crazy distance,but crapped along the way hahaha
reached at the time of the first train and headed home

pretty crazy night,one of the best days to end my YJ journey with.

tc peeps

2008-10-24T00:25:00.001+08:00

there was nothing much one coul‭d say,the flow of time is cruel.it's either you move along with it,or get left behind.no one's gonna listen to your crying or whining. you'll have to pick yourself up and run,otherwise the gap is just going to get bigger and bigger.
its exactly 28days to my freedom,4weeks.
the three week after next is going to determine my future.... this journey would have sucked pretty much if not for the support of my friends and tutor's guidance. thank you all,this is the last lap to go.

i guess rainy days are pretty much the best time to sleep?sheesh i was apparently‭ sleeping throughout the day,omg sinful.
i guess i will have to head back to school in order to really do some serious revision.there's no distraction there,and tutors are all there anytime to clarify my doubts.the journey to school may be a long and tiring one,but i still love bus journeys,weird habit of mine.

i think i have missed out pretty much on the days that i actually look forward to school.not till when you realise the no. of days you can enter the school as their student is limited and counting down fast.

conclusion: what is the strongest thing of all? the flow of time,no one has the strength to turn it back,not even hercules or superman haha

'If you think your teacher is tough, wait until you get a boss. He doesn't have tenure.'
'Be nice to nerds. Chances are you'll end up working for one.'<< omg =.=
'If I'd had some set idea of a finish line, don't you think I would have crossed it years ago?'<< i love this
'If you can't make it good, at least make it look good.'<< wow this says pretty much about my situation now,for A lvl
'Success is a lousy teacher. It seduces smart people into thinking they can't lose.'<< very true
-Bill Gates

resolution for next week,i wanna eat something light and bland for almost all my meals! will try as much to avoid junk food haha.but i guess at times i will give in to temptations.so just a little alright?
i hope that during the exam,my body will not play stunts on me lyk it did during my prelims.lyk...giving me excruciating stomach pain?nonono

o btw,Happy 21st Birthday Brother!

2008-10-23T00:20:00.001+08:00

11days to my first paper.woah.time passes especially fast when its near to the zero timer,right?the urgency can't be felt till the you see everyone else is doing something which you're not.

studying at home is never productive for me,so i had to resort to travelling the long distance back to school to do my quiet revision,well not exactly quiet (:
thank you Jolene for accompanying me to study through the long hours,till the late evening.can't imagine burying in the notes for hours with no social interaction.thanks for chatting with me to get the time passed to be fulfilling and worthwhile.the accompaniment itself is already something i couldn't ask for more.
going back to school isn't something i really dread,afterall
wahaha im getting elated upon thinking of the post exam activities! (:
ok,back to reality first,exams ):

2008-10-20T22:40:00.002+08:00

o,i think i'm screwed

im feeling so indifferent now,someone please slap me up? i guess it doesn't make any difference. im done for.

anyway,im wondering if it's worth the time making new friends.
thinking about it, they just come and go.

quite true,to me

2008-10-18T13:43:00.003+08:00

i won't get myself associated with people who cannot keep their promises (:

o ya and don't bother using some things as a threat to me,it won't bother me at all,totally

2008-09-30T18:46:00.002+08:00

into the last week of my Tertiary education

about 1month 4 days to A'levels

will be having my graduation ceremony this friday.

coffee,anyone? =D

2008-09-28T10:07:00.001+08:00

im so sorry i didn't mean to ate up your pie, but i did it because i didn't want you to have a stomachache,but it was nice anyway...(burps*)

=D decipher

2008-09-18T20:09:00.001+08:00

hold me at gun-point and blast me thanks.

2008-09-16T15:50:00.001+08:00

The Script
The Man Who Can't Be Moved lyrics

Going back to the corner where I first saw you,
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag I'm not gonna move,
Got some words on cardboard got your picture in my hand,
Saying if you see this girl can you tell her where I am,
Some try to hand me money they don't understand,
I'm not...broke I'm just a broken hearted man,
I know it makes no sense, but what else can I do,
How can I move on when I'm still in love with you...

Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.

So I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

Policeman says son you can't stay here,
I said there's someone I'm waiting for if it's a day, a month, a year,
Gotta stand my ground even if it rains or snows,
If she changes her mind this is the first place she will go.

Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.

So I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

People talk about the guy
Who's waiting on a girl...
Oohoohwoo
There are no holes in his shoes
But a big hole in his world...
Hmmmm

and maybe I'll get famous as man who can't be moved,
And maybe you won't mean to but you'll see me on the news,
And you'll come running to the corner...
Cos you'll know it's just for you

I'm the man who can't be moved
I'm the man who can't be moved...

Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.
[Repeat in background]

So I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

Going back to the corner where I first saw you,
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag not I'm not gonna move.

simple,yet elegant

2008-09-12T19:39:00.005+08:00

Hello. haven updated for some time.
shall start from last saturday

Saturday:
went for chem lesson in the morning,ended around noon,so decided to have lunch at popeye for the first time.headed for airport T1, still as nice as ever

Wanted to try the biscuit,but they ran out of SUPPLY. i guess im missing out something nice? so as a form of compensation,they gave me a free side order. how nice! even though i didnt explicitly requested for the biscuit at first,they initiated in compensating all their customers a free side order!

my first popeye meal ((:

Tuesday:
i was hooked on to it after the first time, so decided to went popeye's again on tuesday after lesson,since it ended at 1210. =X
this time round,i headed for T3(my first time entering)
the place is way too big! such that it appears very empty,kind of sad for those shop owners there, as the amount of people there is...considered pathetic.
after my popeye's meal, went into Candy Empire to look around. woah,there's quite an amount of exclusive chocolates which i don't get to see anywhere else...
in the end b4 i left,i bought a bar of caramel chocolates(which i've finished eating)
and THIS

macadamia chocolates! Shandi get well soon,so you can get to indulge in these like me :P

Thursday:
yea,another long day. i was feeling dead throughout the day.had chem extra lessons after school

yay organic chemistry ((: my love
i managed to survive the ordeal.

Friday:
received my progress report. i do not fear posting here,so that this will serve as a reminder for me to study hard, for the last 50 days or so. at least.
hope everyone will constantly remind me to fill my head with books and notes for the next 1.5months ((:

i'm not proud of my results displayed here,but the rationale is to serve as a reminder to me that this aint enough just yet

2008-09-05T15:39:00.002+08:00

wake up 6.30am
left for school. today had mock chem paper 3
as expected,was given the 2007 A lvl paper to do.

realise i wasn't adequately prepared for this =/

noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

freaking cold in the LT. i had difficulties breathing as the air was too dry,till it became thin air =/
but managed to survive the ordeal.

I WILL SURVIVE!! and i will SURVIVE!!

lol,ridiculously familiar to the ear.

2008-09-03T21:03:00.000+08:00

pondering over smth,
feeling kind of apologetic. wasnt there for her as her fren when she was in the lowest point of her life
aint gonna shed anymore tears.

just call me up,cos you know i'll be there

gt to prepare for Alvls,serious work now.2months to go (:
procrastination=ruination

2008-09-02T16:14:00.001+08:00

thanks to some guys out there offering the application now my phone can work like an iphone =D
who says you need an iPhone to have the iphone function?! i have it right here in my SE g900 (:

2008-09-01T22:36:00.006+08:00

what more can i say,another typical boring day
had plans to buy SE ear piece,cos i didnt like my current one ): it hurts my ear when it's fitted in
den it rained,again. but the air quality was terrible, i was on the verge of dying(lol)
evening,i skipped dinner with family,went out to source for my earpiece
manage to get it at $38 ((:

taken with my nokia 6120c

headed for dinner at swensens (grins*) since my craving for baked rice is here again =D. Ordered fries to go along with ^^

hopefully the next time someone will be accompanying me(sitting across) =/

it's getting tiring to be dining alone on a table for 2

on my way home,i was trying out how sound proof my new hands free set was, i on the volume till the loudest and walk pass the interchange(peak hours),den i slowly reduced the volume. i found out i could still listen to my music(and only my music) even though the volume is only half-full O_O
incredible! =D
den i board the bus,dammmmmmmmmmmn quiet,except my music running in the bgd =D
when i reach home,i took out my keys,couldnt hear it jingle as well(woohooo), and i could hear nothing else except my music~~ yea this is what i wanted,and it's comfy in my ears =)

2008-08-29T20:11:00.002+08:00

today's finally the day of the performance!!

OHOH's fan club ((: ftw

will upload the video once i gt it (:

2008-08-25T20:03:00.003+08:00

had seoul garden lunch with my classmates(you can consider this our unofficial 2nd class bonding session :) the first was at wai dek's house) this is my first time at seoul garden as well (:

seduction(something you guys might not want to consider in the future)

please,don't try this for your own soup(try it for your fren's soup =) ) look at the ladle,see the green thing? it's melted ice cream and BH was trying to stir it into the soup ):

huh?

what are exams as compared to when a fren is at stake.

2008-08-24T14:36:00.001+08:00

being nice to someone need not always be backed by a motive...((:

2008-08-23T11:01:00.001+08:00

had been having so many dreams lately oO. at one time i will wake up at 4am. the nex thing.6am. my fren told me im too stressed

wooah.dreamt things from meeting linkin park face to face(lol) to mashi and maro oO. also had nightmares,but have already forgotten them anyway.too bad

2008-08-20T18:07:00.002+08:00

Today's maths paper 2 was a wholesome killer. wtf. some questions are those i guess i will never see for the rest of my life(exaggerated) but really,it's crazy.
i've been really really tired for these 2 days. ystd slpt in the afternoon for 3-4 whole hours,but at night,i still fell aslp even before 1am,which is very rare.

hope you people like my new blog background. hopefully i wont change it for some time. hahaha

2008-08-18T16:09:00.001+08:00

i hope what i've seen isn't true. or at least if it is, i'm not getting the wrong idea
but...i'll still lyk you as always.

2008-08-17T20:00:00.004+08:00

hello,first day into my new phone,quite happy with it,despite reviews saying that it lags alot. i don encounter that at all! kind of gotten used to SE phones alrdy ;D although cant be as convenient to swap bwt applications like nokia phones. but,i still like the functions,especially the organiser parts,many functions! o well. i think ima sua ku,first time use SE phone.

just now went to supermarket to buy stuff. this nice man in front of me,saw me holding only 2 items while he had a trolley of it,so he offered to let me purchase first. how nice! if it were those aunties,they probably chiong for their lives to get into the queue first -_-

Happy 18th Birthday in advance to Regina Ong!! ((: you're 18! <3

2008-08-16T22:23:00.009+08:00

yay,bought new phone today ((:

Sony Ericsson G900

Networks:
G900 UMTS 2100MHz, GSM/GPRS 900/1800/1900
Screen Display:
240x320 pixels QVGA touchscreen, 2.4 inch
262 k color
Memory:
RAM Memory: 128MB
Flash Memory: 256MB
Shared memory for storage: Up to 160MB user free memory
External memory: Up to 8GB Memory Stick Micro (M2)
Max JAR Size: Unlimited (but depending on available storage)
Max SIS Size: Unlimited (but depending on available storage)

Symbian OS Technology:
Symbian OS v9.1
UIQ 3.0
Native hardware accelerated 3D graphics with Open GL ES support

Java Technology:
CLDC 1.1 JARs supported:
* JTWI 1.0 (JSR 185) consisting of Connected Limited Device Configuration (CLDC) 1.1 HI (JSR 139), MIDP 2.0 (JSR 118), WMA 1.1 (JSR 120)
* PDA Optional Packages (JSR 75)
* Bluetooth (JSR 82)
* Wireless Messaging API 2.0 (JSR 205)
* Web Services (JSR 172)
* Mobile Media API (JSR 135)
* Mobile 3D Graphics (JSR 184)
* Scalable 2D Vector Graphics
* API for J2ME (JSR 226)
* Payment API (JSR 229)
* Nokia UI API 1.1

Browser:
Opera version 8: HTML, xHTML, Javascript, RSS
TLS/SSL security
WAP 2.0

Messaging:
SMS, MMS, EMS
POP3, IMAP4, SMTP and MIME
Push e-mail
Microsoft Exchange ActiveSync
Web mail

Digital Rights Mgmt.: more>>
OMA DRM v1.0

Multimedia Support:
Audio: MP3, AAC-LC, eAAC+, AAC+, HE AAC, AMR-NB, AU, iMelody, MIDI, SP-MIDI, RMF, WAV, WMA, XMF, DLS, Real Audio 9
Video: MPEG-4 (H.263, H.264), 3GPP, RealMedia, WMV
Image: BMP, GIF, JPEG, MBM, PNG, WBMP, SVG Tiny 1.1
Animations: GIF
Streaming: RTSP according to 3GPP

Local Connectivity:
Bluetooth 2.0
USB 2.0
WiFi (802.11b)
VoIP support
PC software

Extra features:
5.0 megapixel camera, x16 digital zoom, touch autofocus
Media player
Streaming audio/video
Latin and Chinese character handwriting recognition
Chinese keypad, Pinyin and Stokes input
Transreflective display for bright light conditions
RSS feed support
Enabled for VoIP third-party clients
Picture and video blogging
MusicDJ
PlayNow
TrackID
FM radio with RDS
Flight mode

2008-08-16T00:02:00.002+08:00

weekends are finally here! 1 week has finally passed. so far only GP full paper down. the rest are still half half,on it's way. o man......why do they have to seperate paper 1,2 and 3? they can just put paper 1 and 2 together!! ): although it's a fact that nobody likes paper 1(don think multiple choices are ez,they play with your dilenma mindset ):,most of the answers will be so close that you will need to work it out to find the precise answer!im referring to chem)

today's math paper was a darn killer,just like bio. arrg totally killed the mood for math paper 2,bio paper 1 and 3 -_-

weekends? study lor

and lastly, Regina,you're turning 18 soon! (: on monday!!

Happy Birthday to Gerlyn!! (who turned 18 on 14th aug) LOL, you haven told me the surprises!!

2008-08-13T18:25:00.002+08:00

re-film of my playing, this time round,much better bah (:

2008-08-12T14:08:00.005+08:00

Today's chem paper was alright. although had left some blanks...hmmm i would still say it's NOT as bad as i though it would be. Saying that it was atrocious will be letting myself down.

tml will be having bio paper in the afternoon,which means i can slp till late! (:

had my lunch at Ajisen just now,piang,costed me $24. i thot they came in a set! in the end it wasnt, and the freaking lemon tea cost me $3,when it's such a small cup(i think i can get it for 50cents from Uncle Jackson's stall) damn,scammed

went into M1,Starhub,Singtel shop(it's good to stay near TM as it has all the main mobile operators :D) to look for deals...manage to catch a few glimpse on the phones that i've wanted,but too bad the price wasnt as good.shall wait awhile more for the price to drop drop drop :D

if only you'll appear everytime when i play this song,i will play it on and on forever...

"I did three things today; miss you, miss you, and miss you."
"Each time I miss you, a star falls down from the sky. So, if you looked up at the sky and found it dark with no stars, it is all your fault. You made me miss you too much!"

2008-08-11T11:32:00.002+08:00

everytime i hear my message tone, i have always hoped 1 of them comes from you. my phone may have limited space,but my heart has unlimited space for you

2008-08-10T20:45:00.011+08:00

let me take you by your hand as we enter the world of magic,weaving out melodies through the blacks and whites... i'll be the right hand,and you will be the left hand,won't you?
will i be given the chance?

afterall,you're my wonderwall...(:

dew jiejie told me this on msn today :why do guys do sth gd which moves them 1 step ahead, and then do sth silly the next which sets them back 2 steps...?

im wondering if i've done the right thing...

2008-08-09T23:48:00.001+08:00

you can change the charts,but never the song

Hello

Playground schoolbell rings
Again
Rain clouds come to play
Again

Has no one told you she's not breathing
Hello
I'm your mind
Giving you someone to talk to...
Hello

If I smile and don't
Believe
Soon I know I'll wake from this dream

Don't try to fix me I'm not broken
Hello
I'm the lie
Living for you so you can hide
Don't cry

Suddenly I know I'm not sleeping
Hello
I'm still here
All thats left of yesterday

2008-08-08T16:02:00.004+08:00

only manage to slp at 3am,woke up 6.20am,kind of late,rushed down to board the bus,manage to bump into Cindy,so went to school with her ((:

ok,so had a long wait in the hall,attending College day speech,national day addressing......blahblah...finally the long-waited sportsmeet started ((:

the weather today was fine,although the sun was hot as usual,there were breezes,so not too bad :D

took videos of the 4x100m

GIRLS

BOYS

forgive me for the poor quality video,it's only a 2m.p. camera with 4x zoom only

Seletar house emerged the overall champion

CONGRATS SHIRLEY YEO AND CHING WAI DEK on attaining INDIVIDUAL OVERALL CHAMPIONs! both from class 214!!

Tml's SIMIN's birthday,however we celebrated for her in advance,TODAY. so honoured rite simin,after you read this,sure touched till shed tears.
wanted to dine in at Swensens, but unfortunately,the student's exclusive offers weren't there anymore. and SOME inconsiderate people,on seeing a long queue outside the restaurant,will purposely stay on their table,holding on to empty cups and chat like no tml,yawns,people,these kind of actions disgusts me totally. i almost wanted to call for the manager,but anyway,they decided to went for teppanyaki instead
cook,stir-fry,add sauce,serve.
clean the metal plate,the uncle accidentally scrubbed too hard and kena simin's serving,on the side
i didnt see it,but i saw Shirley and Simin's expression,they were like *stun*. the thing is,the chef didnt had any emotions,just continued as if nothing has happen,what calmness lol.

after that ,hung around bubble tea shop and Comic connection. Simin,you wan i-dog right? but if no battery,don emo and kill yourself ok,can buy new batteries de.

2008-08-07T11:10:00.001+08:00

sudden urge to film this in my school LT =)

had some mistakes,one-take video,no retakes

vs the original

im still a far cry from it...hmmm......

2008-08-06T17:49:00.003+08:00

prelims are starting in 6 days...but im nt adequately prepared, i don have any motivation,my mind is in a state of madness,in an utter mess.

ystd,gt rejected to have a blood donation, cos it has not been 1 month since my extraction of wisdom tooth....

somehow,i've been weird. i will get sudden feels of panic.and it's those paniks of anxiety. ystd,doc told me my blood pressure was kind of over for my age. the avg was suppsed to be,in systolic 90-120mm hg,mine was 149mm hg,almost 25% over the norm,kind of scary, mild stage of hypertension.maybe this explains why i've been having problems of anxiety...i duno
maybe it's due to my sleeping habits..
stress? i duno what is stress,seriously. I don't even know if i'm under any stress. maybe subconsciously,i am. but i don really feel it,maybe it's being surpresed

approx 85days to A lvl,and counting

the aftermath

2008-08-03T17:36:00.005+08:00

the aftermath of my wisdom tooth extraction....comes the mafan-ness of the hole left behind in my gum T_T
everytime after eating almost anything,some of it will get stuck in the gap,have to rinse my mouth to get it out,so mafan~~ >_<

some people in 214 wanted to join the jam session,performance for the teachers on the upcoming teacher's day. but such late notice by the organiser!we only have less than 1 week b4 the audition,goodness gracious. hmmm according to wei ying...7 opted out,7are in,7 are still sitting on the fence(well it's 7 7 7 as our class have 21 people) i was told to be the pianist...but i have problems of stage fright.
well i guess..this is my call for more people from the class to join! so i will feel more at ease
currently have selected "I'll stand by you" as the theme song as that was the only score i have...

anyway, today was another typical . what else is on? other than revision,stoning,sitting in front of the monitor and stare(=.=). tml will be going to school for consultation and chem extra lessons...

anyone have 'more than words' piano score? please sms and and tell me!! thanks!

i don't know if you knew about it, or rather do i stand a chance. but im afraid that you've already became someone else's...

*loves ♥

2008-08-01T19:56:00.000+08:00

Good friendship doesn't mean you have to see and talk to each other everyday, its all about being there in times of one's need. I'm here just a text away.

i fell asleep by my handphone,waiting for you

2008-07-31T23:01:00.002+08:00

In words, love can be read. In actions, love can be measured but others don't know that even in silence love can be heard.

i guess,im missing something in life without you.

2008-07-31T00:15:00.000+08:00

Types of people:

Pretender:farts silently then acts innocent.
SHY:farts softly den smiles.
Arrogant:farts loudly n laughs.
Unlucky:tries to fart but shits.

yay -.-v

2008-07-29T21:26:00.003+08:00

wah....talk about ystd first RE SIMIN's post

yalor...i tink ystd was the first time i have company for lunch out of school,so touching right...3 babes surround while i eat..omg xin fu...too bad i nvr treat them.......cos im nt oblige to...even though simin is always finding chance to qiao zha me....too bad
as usual,when bitching mates come tgt,they start bitching!
this time,the issue is regarding Simin's approval of working in Singapore,simin,are you currently 21 and above?if not i may have to send you back to Indonesia...i don wan to infringe any Ministry of Manpower law leh..kena fine,den pocket burn big hole again...

lols just joking

TODAY
this morning,woke up to find my mom and sis searching for maro franctically. yea he was indeed missing(from the house)
he was outside the whole night!,at the side staircase there waiting,wah cute maro. blur him
look at how tired he was,probably from the waiting,when i reached home,he was still slping

i suppose Gerlyn will go crazy if she sees maro! :P

im missing you,girl

2008-07-25T21:36:00.002+08:00

today's weather seems to be on my side,gloomy morning

sky was threatening to rain all the way till afternoon. luckily it only drizzled a lil and stopped when my ASP ended. lucky me,didnt have to get myself into the rain again.

today,it happened again,during math. cher said,the test was easy,so we have no reasons to score 1 or 2 over 22.alright,i only gt 3.

disappointed once again,as i striked off my answers one by one to do corrections,almost broke down in class,but manage to get a hold of myself. i didnt really had the mood to listen to the explanations of my mistakes,just asking myself what have gone wrong,yet again.

why does every test,instead of letting us learn about our mistakes,seems to be demoralising me further. im reaching rock bottom soon,i can see it,and feeling it's presence already.

today is the first time i off-ed my phone deliberately(other than examinations)
i passed the bus journey without any mp3,or with my phone on.
i went to TM to walk around,bought polar puffs and sat by a corner,munching away as i watch the moving crowd.

didnt really had the appetite for dinner,ate abit and settled for tv programme.
today bro bought donuts from donut factory,kind of cheered me up a little ((:

cheers

2008-07-24T23:03:00.004+08:00

feeling kind of moody,so im here to blog

what should i do? i duno what's bringing me down. Im having no mood for lessons, sudden urge to just pon lessons,but cant bring myself to do it. Prelim's drawing near, yet im still academically stagnant, how? will i scrape through just like O level? jumping from E8's to A's?doubt so
I don dare tell my parents about this,they will be disappointed, or rather, maybe request me to withdraw from school and get myself into the society to work and fend for myself?

im getting so pissed off by my subjects, im constantly asking myself if im prepared or not. e.g. Math paper,i can do a paper 1 perfectly smoothly,and get stucked on another paper,as if the paper is mocking me for not knowing anything. WHAT IS THIS? am i academically stagnate?or am i just...merely incompetent at all...im asking myself again...

whats more,when it comes to family,always have this strange feeling,where is the bond like others, i think im closer to my frens rather than my family. im always feeling lost...somehow attached to nowhere... my room is my home

im getting late night sleeps still,i bluffed her im going to sleep when it's 11.30pm. well.alright,i did TRY,but ended up only slping at 2am again. im tossing and turning in bed like no one's business,somehow i just couldn't get thoughts out of my mind, i have ton's of random thoughts,from my family,to my future,to myself,to her. Once my fren told me not to think too much, but the more you try not to think about it,the MORE you actually think about it,ironic isn't it.
somehow,im unable to sort out my feelings

i have this weird habit, i tend to get paranoid when thing's arent the way i expect to be,somehow, my thoughts nvr fails to defer from reality. i do get paranoid even the slightest things, thats y i will always reply messages(boon or bane?) why? cos im afraid if i don't reply, i will think the person is waiting for reply,and getting impatient.
sorry,but i get thoughts easily about people backstabbing me and else, im simply a paranoid.

talking about piano...despite being a grade 8 graduate...i don't really feel anything,seriously,i don have the skills as a 8th grader,maybe i was able to attain it due to only that 3 exam pieces,standard wise,i aint there at all. I still envy people who plays well, but my technique somehow disables my left hand from catching up with fast running notes,it's really an impact to me.felt like a failure. People always say have more self-confidence,but words are cheap, actions are hard to execute.

I'm an extrovert with little self-confidence, which makes me more of an introvert,weird isn't it. im always going crazy in front of my frens. I am very sensitive about people's perspective about me. Im a perfectionist, i cant really take criticism,maybe i can,but i wont know how to react to it. put it this way,I'm afraid of how people see me as. I seldom socialise with people out of school. The other day,i asked Melissa how often she watches movie,she told me most probably like a few in a month. How about me? maybe 3-5 movies a year? o...and talking about going out with friends...probably less than 10 times a year.
im envious about others,somehow im just cooped to my house...really envy others.. ):

readers, you can keep the criticisms to yourself, MY blog aint a place for you to RANT about me.

back to my comfy zone,my room

2008-07-22T22:48:00.002+08:00

nothing much to blog

just wanna share some of my Fav songs currently

Incubus - Love Hurts

Tonight we drink to youth
and holding fast to truth
don't want to lose what I had as a boy
My heart still has a beat
but love is now a feat
as common as a cold day in LA
Sometimes when I'm alone I wonder
Is there a spell that I am under
Keeping me from seeing the real thing
Love hurts
but sometimes it's a good hurt
And it feels like i'm alive
Love sings
When it transcends the bad things
have a heart and try me
'Cause without love I won't survive
I'm fettered and abused
Stand naked and accused
should I surface this one man submarine
I only want the truth
So tonight we drink to youth
I'll never lose what I had as a boy
Sometimes when I'm alone I wonder
Is there a spell that I am under
Keeping me from seeing the real thing
Love hurts
but sometimes it's a good hurt
And it feels like I'm alive
Love sings
When it transcends the bad things
have a heart and try me
'Cause without love I won't survive
Without love I won't survive
Love hurts
But sometimes it's a good hurt
And it feels like I'm alive
Love sings
When it transcends the bad things
have a heart and try me
'Cause without love I won't survive
Love hurts, oh
Love hurts
Without love I won't survive
Love hurts, oh
Love hurts
Without love I won't survive

Red Jumpsuit Apparatus - Face Down(acoustic)

Hey girl you know you drive me crazy
One look puts the rhythm in my hand.
Still I'll never understand why you hang around
I see what's going down.

Cover up with make up in the mirror
Tell yourself it's never gonna happen again
You cry alone and then he swears he loves you.

Do you feel like a man
When you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end
As your lies crumble down, a new life she has found.

A pebble in the water makes a ripple effect
Every action in this world will bear a consequence
If you wade around forever you will surely drown
I see what's going down.

I see the way you go and say your right again,
Say your right again
Heed my lecture

Do you feel like a man
When you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end
As your lies crumble down a new life she has found.

Face down in the dirt she says, this doesn't hurt she says I finally had enough..
Face down in the dirt she says, this doesn't hurt she says I finally had enough..

One day she will tell you that she has had enough
Its coming round again.

Do you feel like a man, when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end
As your lies crumble down, a new life she has.

Do you feel like a man, when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end
As your lies crumble down, a new life she has found.

Face down in the dirt she says, this doesn't hurt she says I finally had enough..

2008-07-19T20:47:00.006+08:00

HELLO SIMIN! i pangseh-ed you :D

guess what~~!

dad bought 2 new desktops com~woots :D

now im using it, no more laggy experience ((:

today...my wisdom tooth is finally extracted! well,it was a quick job done,within 10minutes :)
doctor say lucky i came to extract while it's still teething,if it takes it position already,it will be more difficult as it will affect my nerves,leading to more serious infections and complications...i saw the x-ray image,den saw the main nerves so so so close to this damn wisdom tooth!

i guess i will have bear with the after effect for a few days, but it's more worth than spending the next months to bear with the teething of that damn tooth
as stated in my intro,i pangseh-ed simin(awwww) she also have the wisdom tooth problem,tsktsk

sry ah... ah min,cannot pei u go for those 1for1 offers,rmb our pact hor,you pay 57.5%,i pay 42.5%

take time to realise

2008-07-14T23:47:00.003+08:00

only had 2 hours of sleep

but miraculously, i didnt slp at all during lessons in school!

ironic isnt it? usually i will have 5-6 hours of sleep,but i will be dozing off in school

dam sia supposing was able to leave school at 1.40pm but cher say mus stay back to do a survey,den ok with it
BUT,it was like,have to do it as a class? half the class was having econs lesson,which means,2.40pm

i was like...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!????? !#!#%#@!#$

ok but i sat there and help cher check through the notes he have written for our lessons tomorrow.

den came the lame thing,the darn survey lasted only 5mins, was like.........wth....

afterschool, went to orchard,cos wanted to send Regina(=D) home,(1stly she stays near me,2ndly,i didnt wan to go home so early),after her street experiment,to test on ....something conform...come again??oh man i've forgotten what she told me,short term memory-ed.ok only know that it's to test passers-by reaction towards certain situation. but SADLY,from what she told me,there were no response from anyone. seems that most Sg people are having the mindset of MYOB.

today,i realised something
Far East Shopping Centre =/= Far East Plaza
maybe most of you wld know,but,i only knew it today,LOL

ok...she was at Far East PLAZA while i was at shopping centre
den we were on the phone,trying to locate one another,ended up to realise that we were in different place to start with -_-
it took like almost 6 phone calls b4 we were able to locate one another,lol

ok so we took the train,followed by a bus home,sent her to the void deck, talking abt anything under the world

the journey seems short when you have someone to talk to! yea

2008-07-10T23:08:00.003+08:00

i gt 59 for geography(now it's 57,but i suppose i will be given 2 extra marks)

GP? as usual,S,45/100

nex week,ASP gonna start,which means wed-fri,school ends 5.30. o no

but my sole console is,mon i will be out of school at around 1.40pm and tuesday,12.10pm END LESSON(OMG FIRST TIME i dismissed so early since PRIMARY school)

but i reckon that im only able to leave school at 1.30pm

wth

Hello Ying Hui,you are finally online in msn HAHAHA

Hello Regina,where have you been? didnt reply me sms today @_@ jy for your double-tests,hope you did well

Hello SIMIN, i know you do read my blog,come come,my bitching mate hahaha

2008-07-06T22:30:00.002+08:00

nth much to blog about,basically was doing math all the while,
done the 2007 A lvl paper,so much ezier than the freaking block test

anyway,this time round didnt do well for block test
U for Math(pathetic U,19/100)
S for Bio
E for Chem

geog and GP? unknown,nt expecting them to be well too

2008-06-29T19:39:00.006+08:00

Met Joe and his GF + jaxe and his gf at yakun this morning for breakfast,early 7.30am

den took cab to suntec city to queue up for the darn maple cash item(since it's free) and we can go walk ard after that
reached there at around 8.10am,dam,there was a queue already,i thot we were the most kiasu already!

anyway,poor management from Asiasoft,the time they stipulate was 9.00am to start the registration,BUT they only started their dam service at approx. 10.10am! how cool,stood in the queue for like 2 hrs.
went down the event hall to take a look,as expected,we shook our heads,their exchange rate(for their items) is almost a scam -_-

disappointment 1:

cash item only last 3months instead of 1year like previous. 3rd year,tr3ple tr3ats,3months? -_- maybe

disappointment 2:

BOTAK,RETURN ME MY CHARACTER's HAIR ~_~

anyway it was going 11.30am so we decided to go Kenny Rogers for lunch instead.
my first time eating there! lucky Joe was using his credit card,and gt a $5 voucher so i could use it :)). Bought a quarter chicken set meal(thigh) + 2 side dish + chicken soup + coke. costed $25.70,but thanks to joe(who paid for me using credit card),i paid him $20 only
Quite nice,but the chicken soup didnt really suit my taste

After a filling lunch,went to Singapore Flyers(but we didnt board it,of course)
we went to the Kenko spa instead. They went for the fish spa,in which these fishies aka doctor fish*(i duno the scientific name) will eat away dead skin cells off your feet!
it was too expensive($28 per half hour) so i didn't wanna spend the money...despite Joe's persuasion as he say it was an experience...Maybe when i earn my own money i will go Joe ((:
after their session,i proceed for the shoulder massage with 3 other ppl (Joe's gf scared of pain i suppose) $10 for 10mins. Kind of hurt but at least my stiff shoulder was more relieved

Outside the spa shop,near the escalator,happen to see this guy helping people to do Free sketches!(in comical form)
so we queued up. ALOT OF RABBIT WAITING ~_~ ( rabbit as in kids,cos they were like jumping jumping)
here is the video of him drawing,although he wasn't drawing me at that point of time

here is his drawing of me...

although didn't really look like,my eyes too small! maybe the weather was hot so i kind of...shrunk my eyes abit ~_~ my fault

Went down first floor,den this guy was giving out free balloons of animal shaped. Melissa(joe's gf) requested for a monkey.so the guy made her one,but she couldnt figure out how in the world that balloon looks like a monkey. So while cabbing back,joe took out a pen and drew in all the features,alrite the monkey looks reasonably decent already.

Thanks Joe,for paying for the Cab fare To&Fro from suntec ;)

2008-06-27T23:17:00.001+08:00

END OF BLOCK TEST 3

had lunch at sumo house,cheap deals with decent food :)
went to watch "Get Smart" with wing,jade and wei hao at amk hub

damn funny show,but some funny scenes were really "ouch",poor maxwell

nice show,if you guys need a laugh,go watch it =D

ok...im only giving myself up till this sunday to slacken abit,nex mon onwards,it's revision for Prelims....

time is inching closer towards A lvl every second

2008-06-26T21:20:00.000+08:00

i just can't stop yawning!

-oxygen deprievation

2008-06-24T19:39:00.001+08:00

omg bio paper was atrocious

ms ong!! how can you be so 'evil'! =S

so many questions on application! die die le

tml's chem is gonna be atrocious,especially ionic equilibrium

i suck at chem questions that requires calculation...reminds me of maths again

i guess...i have studied in vain for the past weeks...=/

2008-06-21T21:40:00.002+08:00

my wisdom tooth is coming out! =(

it's giving me lots of discomfort,especially last night,i had to keep chewing on chewable mint candys to sort of relieve the pain
i feel like a baby teething again,lol =X, the itchy itchy feeling,wanting to chew on something

some time after next week i shall visit the dentist as next week is block test...

2008-06-19T23:10:00.002+08:00

coming to an end of the school vacation ( well it's not exactly passing like a vacation at all)
revisions and homeworks to be completed.
once school reopens,it's my blocktest

Grandma was discharged from hospital today,but she still looks v feeble, getting restless now and then,waking up only for meals.

I'm craving for swensen's curry chicken baked rice again! but my allowance is holding me back,gotta pay phone bill and it's coming towards the end of the month,which means im not left with much!! hahaha

anyway, a video of my mashi-maro playing XD

2008-06-17T23:07:00.002+08:00

1 week to the start of block test!

had ns medical check up yesterday
grandma admitted to hospital yesterday,put on drop due to lack of glucose in the body,unable to absorb from the food ingested....hope shes' fine

way to go~

2008-06-10T23:45:00.001+08:00

mugged for 7 hours today!

manage to complete vectors and complex number ( but complex number....still abit blur)

i hope this helps me in my BT....i dun wanna fail AGAIN! =(

2 weeks to BT,1mth and 3weeks to prelims =/

2008-06-05T19:47:00.008+08:00

phone in "nokia" servicing! T.T

couldn't play movies of larger file size, as it fickles every 10 sec or so,memory card storage could exceed abt 500mb otherwise the phone system will keep hanging( when it is suppose to be able to support up to 2gb,now it cant even survive 500mb)
lastly...the battery overheats only after a few minutes in a call =.=,can fry egg on it le

guess i will only be able to see my phone within a week

Just stumbled upon one of my ex-classmate's blog,realised how much i have neglected some of my close friends in secondary school due to our postage to different Tertiary education...i haven talk to them for ages,not to mention meeting up ):

this was quoted from the blog " i've a few groups of wonderful friends thorughout my life and sadly none has come by to stay."
the word 'none' strucked me and caught me thinking...even till now as im updating this post. i'm not sure whether it was referring to me but...i'm feeling guilty
i realise how much our friendship have drifted since sec 4 when we became close frens...sorry

maybe it's time for me to try to salvage things before we move on into our adulthood and where everything will be of no return...
sorry guys

2008-06-03T22:23:00.002+08:00

went to watch prince caspian with xin yi just now after my lessons, lol she was on her way back home from cca...
had lunch at pasta mania,and treated her gelato at gelare, nice desserts!

went to causeway point to watch it,since we only had to pay student price. THE CINEMA was FLOODED! mostly students! LOL
seems that people only go for movie becos of student price...haha

bumped into mei fong and her frens =O

Prince Caspian was not bad,in terms of the battles and those...but i just cant help feeling that Prince caspian was kind of an insignificant character in the movie itself hahaha, he was succumbing to the Penvansies and Aslan =X

but the battle was much longer and better than the first movie!( the battle in the first movie lasted only around...20min?) lol but there were some ambiguous parts, like how in the world did Aslan summon the water god? lol (spoilers) and why did Aslan need the Pevansies' help when he was the one who saved Narnia again -_-

the movie ended ard late evening, manage to squeeze up the bus flooded with people

2008-06-01T22:28:00.003+08:00

went for TPJC's guitar and wind ensemble concert at victoria concert hall,to support Candy and Amanda INITIALLY

went with kj,alex and nj.
forgotten to buy flowers,so had to buy it desperately at marina square,man!! the bouquet of 3 flowers cost $28 lo,but it's shared, and i bought another 3 roses for Amanda,i forgotten whats the colour,but looks nice anyway,abit of pale red

as i was walking pass city link, my phone rang,i saw on the caller's ID "Mr Darius Oh"
i was like o wth lol
him:"hello mr alvin lek, you are at city link with 2 other friends right? why never stay at home study"
me:"mr oh,how you know? you stalked me ar?"
him:siao,you also nvr use 'follow me' shampoo today.."
me:"...................."
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how cute can our chem teacher mr Darius Oh go? LOL

saw MANY of my sec sch and pri sch mates! arrr it has been a long time!! HELLO PEOPLE!!
Didn't know Wei Zhen ( pri sch) and Chun Ming ( sec sch) were in the guitar ensemble,shocking sia lol

no offence but...i think the concert was better than the one in my school...

but VCH's seats are quite small and cramped lol
but who cares when there's nice music to go with?

AMANDA TAN PEI SHAN, you better read this ok? =X i will never forget how u pangseh me last year in YJC OK and left for TPJC,leaving me alone LOL
im kidding,but i realise i missed you ALOT GIRL when i saw you ystd at the concert (as a fren) HAHAHA gonna find time to go out with you and Candy as you requested

2008-05-30T22:36:00.002+08:00

went SP for the first time to meet sy after my boring schoolday(Cos only 7 people turned up for lessons)
i waited outside at the bridge for sy for like 45mins b4 she came out of her sch to fetch me in -____-
sat inside the library to chill out till abt 7+,entertained by her and her frens lol
...........and waited for gerlyn to come over!
she only came at 6+,and wen off in less than 15mins!!!!!!! gerlyn teo you owe me one =D

went off at about 7+
had meal in mac, tried out the onion rings,not bad,but quatity too little

2008-05-28T22:35:00.000+08:00

arr! i mus say this 2 weeks is the best time to catch up with my work! cos i will be heading back to college as usual,except that there is no flag raising! means waking up slightly later =D

3 weeks+ to block test, o no

after bt,1 month and 1 week for revision and here comes prelims

2008-05-21T20:13:00.001+08:00

hello all,thanks for all you wishes (:

im 18! =X

2008-05-19T21:53:00.002+08:00

hello,who will listen to my grievances? if there is someone,it will only be you, my blog

it kept me thinking, why am i so controlled?

maybe i must say it's right of you to remind me to focus on my studies, but in the end, you had to tell me what to do?

it's till such an extent, my room has to be organised the way you wanted it, when it was my room. now my room looks like an office, not a typical teenager-like.
i cant lock my door in the day? absurds
why make a lock in the first place,remove it then.

ya,i know i lack planning, with no goals

but in the end,im feeling like im living the way you want it to be, not what i wanna be.

dying soon

cya

2008-05-11T11:46:00.001+08:00

saw this on an email....

> >>>>When you were 8 years old, >your mom handed you an ice cream.
> >>>>You thanked her by dripping it all over your lap.
> >>>>
> >>>>When you were 9 years old, she paid for piano lessons.
> >>>>You thanked her by not bothering to practice.
> >>>>
> >>>>When you were 10 years old she drove you all day, from soccer to
> >>>>football to one birthday party after another.
> >>>>You thanked her by jumping out of he car and never looking back.
> >>>>
> >>>>When you were 11 years old, she took you and your friends to the movies.
> >>>>You thanked her by asking to sit in a different row.
> >>>>
> >>>>When you were 12 years old, she warned you not to watch certain TV
> >>>>shows.
> >>>>You thanked her by waiting until she left the house.
> >>>>
> >>>>When you were 13, she suggested a haircut that was becoming.
> >>>>You thanked her by telling her she had no taste.
> >>>>
> >>>>When you were 14, she paid for a month away at summer camp.
> >>>>You thanked her by forgetting to write a single letter.
> >>>>
> >>>>When you were 15, she came home from work, looking for a hug.
> >>>>You thanked her by having your bedroom door locked.
> >>>>
> >>>>When you were 16, she taught you how to drive her car.
> >>>>You thanked her by taking it every chance you could.
> >>>>
> >>>>When you were 17, she was expecting an important call.
> >>>>You thanked her by being on the phone all night.
> >>>>
> >>>>When you were 18, she cried at your high school graduation.
> >>>>You thanked her by staying out partying until dawn.
> >>>>
> >>>>When you were 19, she paid for your college tuition, drove you to
> >>>>campus,carried your bags.
> >>>>You thanked her by saying good-bye outside the dorm so you wouldn't be
> >>>> >>>>embarrassed in front of your friends.
> >>>>
> >>>>When you were 25, she helped to pay for your wedding, and she cried and
> >>>>told you how deeply she loved you.
> >>>>You thanked her by moving halfway across the country.
> >>>>
> >>>>When you were 50, she fell ill and needed you to take care of her.
> >>>>You thanked her by reading about the burden parents become to their
> >>>>children.
> >>>>
> >>>>And then, one day, she quietly died. And everything you never did came
> >>>>crashing down like thunder on YOUR HEART.

how many a times have we neglected the concerns and love from our mother while trying to solve your rubik's cube, rushing to complete the assignment,or left the house in a rush without taking the bread your mom have made for you?

show your appreciation now b4 it's too late (:

2008-05-11T01:26:00.005+08:00

interesting story i gt from shirley's blog....

Science and God

'Let me explain the problem science has with Jesus Christ.' The atheist professor of philosophy pauses before his class and then asks one of his new students to stand.

'You're a Christian, aren't you, son?'

'Yes sir,' the student says.

'So you believe in God?'

'Absolutely.'

'Is God good?'

'Sure! God's good.'

'Is God all-powerful? Can God do anything?'

'Yes.'

'Are you good or evil?'

'The Bible says I'm evil.'

The professor grins knowingly. 'Aha! The Bible!' He considers for a moment.

'Here's one for you. Let's say there's a sick person over here and you can cure him. You can do it. Would you help him? Would you try?'

'Yes sir, I would.'

'So you're good...!'

'I wouldn't say that.'

'But why not say that? You'd help a sick and maimed person if you could. Most of us would if we could. But God doesn't.'

The student does not answer, so the professor continues. 'He doesn't, does he? My brother was a Christian who died of cancer, even though he prayed to Jesus to heal him How is this Jesus good? Hmmm? Can you answer that one?'

The student remains silent.

'No, you can't, can you?' the professor says. He takes a sip of water from a glass on his desk to give the student time to relax.

'Let's start again, young fella Is God good?'

'Er...yes,' the student says.

'Is Satan good?'

The student doesn't hesitate on this one. 'No.'

'Then where does Satan come from?'

The student : 'From...God...'

'That's right. God made Satan, didn't he? Tell me, son. Is there evil in this world?'

'Yes, sir.'

'Evil's everywhere, isn't it? And God did make everything, correct?'

'Yes.'

'So who created evil?' The professor continued, 'If God created everything, then God created evil, since evil exists, and according to the principle that our works define who we are, then God is evil.'

Without allowing the student to answer, the professor continues: 'Is there sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things, do they exist in this world?'

The student: 'Yes.'

'So who created them?'

The student does not answer again, so the professor repeats his question. 'Who created them? There is still no answer. Suddenly the lecturer breaks away to pace in front of the classroom. The class is mesmerized.

'Tell me,' he continues onto another student. 'Do you believe in Jesus Christ, son?'

The student's voice is confident: 'Yes, professor, I do.'

The old man stops pacing. 'Science says you have five senses you use to identify and observe the world around you. Have you ever seen Jesus?'

'No sir. I've never seen Him'

'Then tell us if you've ever heard your Jesus?'

'No, sir, I have not.'

'Have you ever actually felt your Jesus, tasted your Jesus or smelt your Jesus? Have you ever had any sensory perception of Jesus Christ, or God for that matter?'

'No, sir, I'm afraid I haven't.'

'Yet you still believe in him?'

'Yes.'

'According to the rules of empirical, testable, demonstrable protocol, science says your God doesn't exist. What do you say to that, son?'

'Nothing,' the student replies. 'I only have my faith.'

'Yes, faith,' the professor repeats. 'And that is the problem science has with God. There is no evidence, only faith.'

The student stands quietly for a moment, before asking a question of his own. 'Professor, is there such thing as heat?'

'Yes,' the professor replies. 'There's heat.'

'And is there such a thing as cold?'

'Yes, son, there's cold too.'

'No sir, there isn't.'

The professor turns to face the student, obviously interested. The room suddenly becomes very quiet. The student begins to explain.

'You can have lots of heat, even more heat, super-heat, mega-heat, unlimited heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat, but we don't have anything called 'cold'. We can hit up to 458 degrees below zero, which is no heat, but we can't go any further after that. There is no such thing as cold; otherwise we would be able to go colder than the lowest -458 degrees. Every body or object is susceptible to study when it has or transmits energy, and heat is what makes a body or matter have or transmit energy. Absolute zero (-458 F) is the total absence of heat. You see, sir, cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat we can measure in thermal units because heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it.'

Silence across the room. A pen drops somewhere in the classroom, sounding like a hammer.

'What about darkness, professor. Is there such a thing as darkness?'

'Yes,' the professor replies without hesitation. 'What is night if it isn't darkness?'

'You're wrong again, sir. Darkness is not something; it is the absence of something. You can have low light, normal light, bright light, flashing light, but if you have no light constantly you have nothing and it's called darkness, isn't it? That's the meaning we use to define the word. In reality, darkness isn't. If it were, you would be able to make darkness darker, wouldn't you?'

The professor begins to smile at the student in front of him. This will be a good semester. 'So what point are you making, young man?'

'Yes, professor. My point is, your philosophical premise is flawed to start with, and so your conclusion must also be flawed.'

The professor's face cannot hide his surprise this time. 'Flawed? Can you explain how?'

'You are working on the premise of duality,' the student explains. 'You argue that there is life and then there's death; a good God and a bad God. You are viewing the concept of God as something finite, something we can measure. Sir, science can't even explain a thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing. Death is not the opposite of life, just the absence of it.'

'Now tell me, professor. Do you teach your students that they evolved from a monkey?'

'If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process, young man, yes, of course I do'

'Have you ever observed evolution with your own eyes, sir?'

The professor begins to shake his head, still smiling, as he realizes where the argument is going. A very good semester, indeed.

'Since no one has ever observed the process of evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavour, are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you now not a scientist, but a preacher?'

The class is in uproar. The student remains silent until the commotion has subsided.

'To continue the point you were making earlier to the other student, let me give you an example of what I mean.'

The student looks around the room. 'Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the professor's brain?' The class breaks out into laughter.

'Is there anyone here who has ever heard the professor's brain, felt the professor's brain, touched or smelled the professor's brain? No one appears to have done so. So, according to the established rules of empirical, stable, demonstrable protocol, science says that you have no brain, with all due respect, sir. So if science says you have no brain, how can we trust your lectures, sir?'

Now the room is silent. The professor just stares at the student, his face unreadable.

Finally, after what seems an eternity, the old man answers. 'I guess you'll have to take them on faith.'

'Now, you accept that there is faith, and, in fact, faith exists with life,' the student continues. 'Now, sir, is there such a thing as evil?'

Now uncertain, the professor responds, 'Of course, there is. We see it everyday. It is in the daily example of man's inhumanity to man. It is in the multitude of crime and violence everywhere in the world. These manifestations are nothing else but evil.'

To this the student replied, 'Evil does not exist sir, or at least it does not exist unto itself. Evil is simply the absence of God. It is just like darkness and cold, a word that man has created to describe the absence of God.

God did not create evil. Evil is the result of what happens when man does not have God's love present in his heart. It's like the cold that comes when there is no heat or the darkness that comes when there is no light.'

The professor sat down.

2008-05-06T22:47:00.002+08:00

Thanks 214 for the Birthday cake!(though it's for april and may babies)

tasty cake which tasted like kinder bueno lol.

tiring day for me,just reached home, from school....
night lecture ended 9pm

btw,muttons called dawn to prank her with a birthday call! me and gisela sms-ed in....lol maybe after seeing 2 people wanting to prank the same person,they decided to target dawn haha.

after that, i manage to win a "pillowfight nightpack" from Soo's program...but don konw when will i receive it....or even get it in the first place.. ha

2008-05-04T00:50:00.000+08:00

went for band concert in school just now

went on pretty well i mus say,but one of the emcees screwed up badly,broke down into laughter during the opening -_-
my favourite piece in the concert was Jericho bah

but but but,didnt know they had included overture to kingdom hearts! ahh one of my fav games =D

i didnt know Jonathan and Wei Ling(she told me to call her 'anyhow',i suppose it's annie how,lol) were in band! =X

went for supper at the nasi padang shop after the concert with shirley,jade,wai dek and jeremy.

reached home at abt....12.30....which is just like 20minutes ago haha

2008-05-02T22:51:00.002+08:00

today me and bh discussed smth "interesting" during bio lessons

were there many generations of species that are dominating earth like what humans are doing today?
such that the technology we are having currently is what has already been founded during their civilisation?
to me,i believe this is quite true.....cos when mankind is wiped out, everything will be taken over by nature,ultimately,we are unable to compete against mother-nature herself. everything will go back to what it is meant to be...without buildings...roads....
another thing is about the solar system itself. are there other solar systems that are similar to us,such that there are other planets with living creatures(to us,they are aliens,but to them,we are the aliens lol)? maybe this is currently existing,no one knows,the galaxy is way too big to be explored
lastly, what will happen if we enters the black hole? bh made this somewhat nonsensical statement,saying we can travel through time....hmmmmm....... lols
the wonders of nature itself

2008-04-26T23:08:00.002+08:00

woke up at 6.15am,went all the way to sembawang. met up with shalini,hui yu and zhi hui. where are all the others!? asleep of course,but they overslept lols

yea wen to do CIP at a neighbourhood carnival. we had to be game masters

initially when it started,there were still SOME people around. however till noon,the sun was blazing and you can say it's like,we are jus purely burning ourselves in the sun -_-

yea,and i gt sun burnt.

but looking back,i think this was my first actual CIP that i have done,in my JC life.

after 3pm,finally someone took over the stall.

wing,jade and wei hao +mysel went to SunPlaza to slack around till 5.settling for dinner (quite early,so i named it linner(lunch+dinner)) started crapppppppppping

thats all about it lol

2008-04-25T21:07:00.001+08:00

sick.

nothing much to look forward these days
watching time go right out of the window

im not enjoying my life right now

2008-04-14T23:16:00.002+08:00

i know this came abit late but

congrats to the whole of YJC CTG 114'07 for getting an A in PW

not forgetting our beloved Mrs Liou for her utmost guidance throughout the process!

all our hard work had paid off!!!=D

but im down with flu =(

shall talk about saturaday.
went back to cchms for the school anniversary bazaar. it's been sooooooooooooo long since i've gone back there. suddenly missed my school soo soo sooo much when i stepped into the campus. but it rained very heavily D=
poor stalls located at the tech block service road as it was badly flooded till almost the knees.
luckily,the rain subsided after an hr and the chung cheng spirit was back! =D
i didnt stay that long,left around 3pm.

my alma mater~

went to TM with Ning jia,cept,zhi hao and shi liang to watch "Three Kingdoms"
wasnt very nice,but also not too bad,thus...3/5
had dinner with nj,cept and candy. settled with chicken katsu curry lols

on SUNDAY
bro decided to treat the family a meal. so went to Liang Court, at Tampopo, a JAP restaurant for lunch.yes,jap food again LOL
i ate this shabu ramen,tasted nice,but quite pricey as the ingredients weren't alot.
later went walking around MeiDi-ya,the jap supermarket there and shopped around,ended up stocking sushi's for dinner! that makes it triple man LOL
o,and this is what i saw in the supermarket

crazy size apples,size of my palm @_@

oranges to make it double!!

last but not least,this crazy chicken thighs which are as big as a pig trotters LOL

o o o,and i saw this honeydew,which wasn't very big,but it was selling at $89.90 LOL WTF. yea cos it's like...flew here from japan? maybe in a first class seat as well o.o but sadly i didnt take a photo of it

thats about it,will update soon! =D

2008-04-09T23:42:00.003+08:00

you have no right to comment about anything! you aint in anyway better off?

all you know is how to bring people down,commenting on how screwed people can be. get a life tks

2008-04-03T22:22:00.003+08:00

blog is going on en-bloc again~~

shall start renovating maybe this weekend?

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY HAZEL~! gahh

today's lessons were pretty slack,had 2.5hrs break. but too bad lessons were spaced out till such that it ends at 4.10. well it occurs on every thurs

i wld rather sch ends earlier! but the clashing of timetable doesnt permit us.......i guess i will have to move on...lol

the weather these few days are pretty,or rather,DAMN SCREWED! o no im getting runny nose like anytime. it comes and goes off like no one's business. here it comes again while im typing this post

im so tired these few nights that im slping like b4 12am? omg im finally able to slp early sia :D

ystd managed to call in 'roast mutton' like last wed. but i didnt win the nokia 6110 phone! =( o man i guess i will have to come up with more insults again =x to win the phone. i wanna win it!

ROAST MUTTON(98.7fm)
"Justin you are so fat that when you met with car accidents,the CARS were the casualties"
"Justin you are so fat that when you went skiing people thought it was an avalanche"
"Justin you are so fat that when you slip and fall by the beach you triggered a tsunami"
"Justin you are so smelly when you fart people say 'eh you today put perfume ah?' "
"Justin you are so fat that when you stand on a weighing scales the meter probably spins like a fan"
"Justin you are so........"
.......
.......
.......
this game is ez to play,but HARD to win the phone

2008-04-01T22:37:00.001+08:00

bland school day! so many people were absent, lols

arrg really boring lol

shall update soon again,im slpy

2008-03-27T21:37:00.001+08:00

gt about 48% for bio =.= aaaaarrrrrrrrrr missed by a few marks T.T

but the good thing is that im no longer scoring U's for bio! <3

weekend is coming,will be having dinner at Geraldine's house this sat... haha

2008-03-26T22:09:00.005+08:00

arggg, block test disaster!
U for maths,33/100 percentile 42.5%
C for Chem 60/100 percentile 78.4%

what's going to happen to GP,Bio,and geog? ~_~
bio currently only 21/40 for paper 1,im not too optimistic about paper 2 either

could have done better for chem if not for those careless mistakes

maths was pathetic as usual,could have done better with more practices

im always procrastinating,as usual

thank you Geraldine for the times you had taken off to accompany me for the pass few days (: <3
but stop saying me pandi! =.=

2008-03-20T21:16:00.003+08:00

yay finally block test is..................NOT really over -.- one more geog paper to go,nex mon.
sad to say,but most people are probably enjoying now!,from fri to tue. It's such a long long LONG holiday for them,but only 1 day for me,which is next tue.

anyway,talking abt block test

bio- screwed
chem-paper 1 screwed,paper 2 drew combustion cycle with arrows pointing in wrong direction,chem elucidation cannot finish
maths - well.......take it as it had nvr happened
geog - yet to know,but one thing for sure,i hate writing -.-

can you imagine your parents NAGGING AND NAGGING like every 10mins? omg i just feel like saying STFU but cant. PICKING ON EVERY THINGS I DO,jus to say "why nvr study? wasting time watching tv,using com,listen radio....blah blah blah"

whatever. i might as well lock myself in the room and shut off from the world.

2008-03-17T18:17:00.002+08:00

first day into block test........ GP

started off with compo,i wrote about the environment and it's almost like regurgitating all the geography facts ~_~ but i think i manage to pull it through anyway.....
followed by a damn compre,dry topic, on innovation
probably gonna screw up

bio,chem,math and geog coming the way X(

2008-03-09T23:21:00.003+08:00

shall talk abt yesterday's bbq at Wai Dek's house
i left home at 5+,and wen to WD's house alone
when i thot i had reached the bus stop,i alighted and cross the road
den i found the road names did nt match what WD had told me earlier on
i called him
......
......
......
me:eh wai dek,where is your house ah? i at Dedap there
WD:err,dedap is the WHOLE stretch of road...
me:eh...here gt childcare,den playground
(actually there are many childcare and playground in that area)
WD: den shld be able to see Begonia what..you see any mama shop around?
me:no
WD:den can you see a big green field?
me:ya,if i walk in,i think im near Canice's house
WD: YES YOU ARE
me:....den did i overshot the bus stop,so i shld walk back?
WD: ya,walk back

alrite,finally gt my direction right and manange to reach his house some time later. settled down and had some food while chatting.
And i mus say,the chicken wings this time is far better than the previous Class BBQ's. At least now we don taste soy sauce all over LOL
Ms Ong came over not long after as she stayed v near wd's house. She brought us some ice cream (:
later in the night we had a celebration for March babies,Shirley and Gisela. But the lead was Gisela cos her birthday is 9th March ( Today). The cake was a nice black forest.

Jac and Nicole went home quite early,even before the cutting of the cakes...but it's ok,their attendance is greatly appreciated.
Den CAME THE EVENT OF THE NIGHT. unwrapping Gisela's present,given to her from the Girls. o, the present is wrapped until it looks huge

Gisela took almost half an hour to unwrap it,cos it has MANY,many,many layers...and there will be a message at certain part of it. Finally when she unwrapped until there's a box,she was like"YES FINALLY".but when she open it, ANOTHER present wrapped with newspaper. Alrite,she resigned to fate and continues her 'expedition'. finally when its down to the last part. yea,this time is for real,the present is in the box. she open and took a peek at it,den she screamed "OMG" lol
i shall not say what was in the box,you will have to ask her yourself!

after the bbq,went to the nearby playground
many people started to emo over there,probably becos of the swings and merry-go-ground

very long time ago since i played the swing.
by then it was already 12am++ going 1am
at this point of time many things will just surface in your mind, den i started to think about many things that had happened. Maybe i was thinking too much.
Den we headed back to WD's house. hung around for some time
den WD drove Wing,Gisela and Dawn home. Jade and Jeremy was in the car as well but returned with WD lol. Jade couldnt go home cos too far away and fatigue was already running on WD. Jeremy merely went home to clear off his contact lenses and wore a specs back.
Meanwhile, while they were away, me,bh, and shirley became guards of the house. haha we sat beside the bbq pit and chatted. Time passed real fast. when they were back,it was probably an hour and a half. but we felt that it feel much shorter
Den we went into the house to watch TV...den slowly one by one slpt.
i was the last man standing, slpt at 5++. But i was the lastest to wake up lol(it's logical alrite)
left WD's house at 10.30am...
went home to SLP again,cos i didnt had enough slp at WD's house =D

on the overall...the Class BBQ cum Gathering was quite a success because
1) ZHI HUI AND AILEEN TURNED UP( quite a miracle =x cos they usually wont)
2)manage to get Jac,Nicole and Jeremy to come too(cos they werent from 114 previously and our class were the majorities) who cares! we are in 214 now and 214 rocks! :D

quite a pity Shalini, Hui Yu and Ginny didnt turn up.

but hopefully in the upcoming class events the attendance shall be 21/21! =D

2008-03-05T21:32:00.003+08:00

today was a long day

had napfa test in the morning,sch ended at 3.40 but had to go to National museum for the "Greek Masterpieces" exhibition,basically,jus to see sculptures den. The 'tour' wasnt boring,but the air-conditioning wasn't strong enough and i began to feel restless
took a no. of photos but i duno their names

i have more pictures to upload,but will do so at a later date
left the museum at about six...walked towards marina square with gisela,dawn,wing and jade. They went off to K-box to sing like siao
den i went to Secret Recipe for a slice of cake and lemon. Oh man,the Chocolate banana cake is nice,but VERY chocolate-y. over-dosage of chocolates doesnt feel gd! the serving size was very big, haha.
anyway after that,made my way back to tampines mall and had my actual meal at pasta mania
tried the new flavour, Unagi pasta. Tasted ok.

well,reached home tired and half dead,about 9+pm

going to receive my A lvl chinese results on fri! hope it's an A =(

2008-03-01T22:37:00.002+08:00

o man.i think my memory is deteriorating T_T
i actually messed up my time for my bio lessons! )): i kept thinking it was 12pm....but the fact was,it started at 11am and was ENDING at 12pm.
so.....ya......took me an hr+ to reach sch,but was only in there for 15MINS cos cher was already wrapping up the LESSON. So embarrassing man. i walked in,and i thot my classmates were bluffing me that lessons were ending. i walked in and asked " am i very late?" seriously i wasnt aware of anything! ~_~
so in the end, no lessons,no revisions, im on my own
i wen to BK alone and tried to study,but nt v productive though, i was dozing off,kind of tired. so went home.
renovation works are still on-going! unable to complete by today, so no slping on my own in my room again. sad
hopefully things can be wrapped up tml. otherwise it's gonna be affecting me for some time

2008-02-29T23:16:00.004+08:00

alrite people,finally finish renovating my blog,within 1hr+ ;D :D great achievement

hope you guys like it ^^

today in sch suddenly had the urge to play the piano,so was stuck to it for almost 1.5 hrs...after sch went back to play again

haha just wanted to immerse myself in it.

left sch at abt 7pm for dinner with jade and ah wing. settle at BK, where we crapped and some private talks

JADE CAME OUT WITH THIS DISGUSTING STORY TO DISCOURAGE AH WING FROM consuming mayonnaise. and it wasnt affecting me much but,ah wings' pace slowed down after the story. LOL effective! 100/100

left northpoint at abt 9.15pm and reached home at about 10.30.

my room has a big hole on the wall now,renovations done halfway. going to have additional sliding doors directly to living room. but tonite's gg be a torture cos cant slp in my own cozy bedroom! T__T block test in 17 days!

yea tml will be going back school for Bio lessons,looking forward to it as,
1) i know NOTHING about photosynthesis and respiration
2) block test is coming and this is a good chance to get some concepts right and revise
3) i don have to be stuck at home to face the naggings
4) abstain from using computers

^^ thats about it

Can someone maybe tell me,why wld a girl do things to make a guy hate her. sometimes he will nvr be able to comprehend what's going through her mind.
the men just wont get it (ya talking abt myself)

2008-02-28T22:22:00.002+08:00

alrite people,i shall abstain myself from linkin park songs,well nt literally ABSTAIN but, will expose myself to other genre of songs instead ^^

i shall refurnish my blog soon again,change to a more lively one ha

2008-02-27T22:03:00.002+08:00

woooooooots,napfa postponed to nex week due to spa~
phew another week to train up, :D

today's chem spa was straightforward, but had a small glitch,forgotten to use a test tube holder when adding aluminium powder to the unknown,MARKED DOWN
no perfect score le,sad T.T

was having CCA bazaar today,but doesnt seem really organised cos,don really see constant crowds patronising the stalls...nvm anyway
cueball club,the lesser the member,the better! don have to keep waiting for such a long time to play :P

vectors test - fri
nervous system test - nex mon

have to score for it

block test in 18 days! arrg

Dazed-

2008-02-26T22:25:00.003+08:00

this morning in sch,sharon asked if i was ok,cos my eye bags were so obvious i look dead.
i told her im ok,but i don really feel good. couldnt concentrate in maths and chem lecture...dozed off

gt back math test paper,16/50 =(

during break,ate curry chicken noodle,but couldnt finish it today,cos the chilli sheds were so spicy,kept choking on it today

after that came gp. i was already feeling dead then. gp cher asked if im ok, den i was like telling her abt my slpless nights,or rather,nights that i gt desperate to slp,but just couldnt get into slp. the feeling is really scary.

had extra math lessons today,ended sch around 5.30. shagged

struggled my way home,and ate dinner like a zombie,dad asked if im ok,thats the third person of the day who asked me
do i really look that dead? and lifeless? i guess so,cos im feeling that way too

going to have vectors test on fri,have to pass it...have to...
im so freaking vexed over so many issues!

tml's NAPFA test T___T 5item+ 2.4km run tgt,o nooooo,
will be having chem spa tml too and CCA after sch
pray that i will surpass tml

Linkin Park Valentine's Day Lyrics

My insides all turn to ash, So slow
And blew away as I collapse, So cold
A black wind took them away, From sight
And held the darkness over day, that night

And the clouds above move closer
looking so dissatisfied
but the heartless wind kept blowing, blowing

I used to be my own protection, But not now
Cause my path has lost direction, Somehow
A black wind took you away, From sight
And held the darkness over day, That night

And the clouds above more closer
looking so dissatisfied
and the ground below grew colder
as they put you down inside
but the heartless wind kept blowing, blowing

So now you're gone
And I was wrong
I never knew what it was like
To be alone

On a Valentine's Day
On a Valentine's Day
On a Valentine's Day
On a Valentine's Day
On a Valentine's Day

(I used to be my own protection)
On a Valentine's Day,
(But not now)

On a Valentine's Day

(Cause my mind has lost direction)
On a Valentine's Day,
(somehow)
On a Valentine's Day

(I used to be my own protection)
On a Valentine's Day,
(But not now)
On a Valentine's Day

(Cause my mind has lost direction)
On a Valentine's Day,
(somehow)

IM FOREVER LIVING IN SELF DENIAL

2008-02-25T21:53:00.003+08:00

maybe she hates me for being dishonest with myself. Even if that is not the case, i hate myself for this as well.

how to say the words out loud, i just can't seem to pluck up the courage. Sorry, i haven been able to build up my confidence since the last relationship.

IM FOREVER LIVING IN SELF DENIAL D=

2008-02-24T15:04:00.003+08:00

just happen to found the link to the clocks and timer countdowns on the left! alrite...shall constantly remind myself how time ticks life away.....haha

nothing much today,brought my dog back from the pet farm.
my house is going to have a mini renovation again,making another room for my grandma to live in,and certain modifications to the currently kitchen which looks so run down. alteration to the wall that seperates my room and the living room too

time to change the arrangement of furnitures in my room again! D=

2008-02-22T22:01:00.003+08:00

i sat in front of the piano as i slowly weaved out the melodious tunes through the blacks and whites
only to find my frustrations unfolding, one by one.
however, one thing just stay put. unexplained.
it started raining not long after and i was still stuck in school. I saw you but you were with your frens. I started to wonder if you realised my existance or whatever
anyway thats not really the point.
i walked out of school without an umbrella anyway, and deliberately caught myself in the rain.
i just feel like it.
thoughts ran through my mind. all these things came back to me again,and i found myself alone in the rain.

i'm on my own again.

thanks to fung mei,i have another reason to meddle with my piano again! she suddenly mentioned about Maksim the piano player to me,den...i suddenly remembered i like this piece alot,Exodus. even though it had a weird introduction,as the pieces move along...it's so mesmerizing... thanks =D

Who doesn't long for someone to hold?

2008-02-21T21:32:00.005+08:00

I'm afraid to tell you because i didn't want it to affect our friendship.i would rather keep this feeling to myself if this is bound to happen...

Natasha Bedingfield Lyrics
Soulmate Lyrics

Incompatible, it don't matter though

'cos someone's bound to hear my cry
Speak out if you do
you're not easy to find

Is it possible Mr. Loveable
is already in my life?
right in front of me
or maybe you're in disguise

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
who knows how to love you without being told
somebody tell me why I'm on my own
if there's a soulmate for everyone

Here we are again, circles never end
how do I find the perfect fit
there's enough for everyone
but I'm still waiting in line

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
who knows how to love you without being told
somebody tell me why I'm on my own
if there's a soulmate for everyone

If there's a soulmate for everyone

Most relationships seem so transitory
They're all good but not the permanent one

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
who knows how to love you without being told
somebody tell me why I'm on my own
if there's a soulmate for everyone

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
who knows how to love you without being told
somebody tell me why I'm on my own
if there's a soulmate for everyone
If there's a soulmate for everyone

2008-02-21T00:35:00.001+08:00

nothing to look forward to tomorrow

when you're gone~~~ the pieces of my heart are missing you

2008-02-19T21:12:00.002+08:00

sweet. thot i had to go through that freaking 4.5 hrs of lessons str8 b4 i get my break. fortunately,geog lecture was cancelled,i cld take a breathe for abt 40mins ( nt cursing my teachers to be sick,but im tired)

ended the day with sexuality education. cher told us some of the life stories he had experienced, some of his close frens' too as well. kind of enlightening, but heard similar cases b4 already...

anyone can tell me how to make a confession? (: maybe i dont wanna lose the chance anymore,and live with regrets. alrite i know it sounds plain stupid for a guy. ha,but the hardest things is to express what he really wans to say.

P.S. I Love You(haha)

this is getting boring

2008-02-17T23:18:00.003+08:00

sunday! woke up at around 10am (i guess im waking up later and later as i ages,las time i used to wake up 8am even though there's no school)

slacked around till 1+ and i started reading up my geog....and doing my essay question! for the first time =D =D

but took me quite some time as i need to look up for case studies to fit into the essay..well..nvm

den proceed to maths.vectors-planes
stared at the question for such a long time b4 asking fren how to do.....but gave up anyway,since tml's maths test doesnt include plane,i might as well focus more on lines instead

talking about test..i will be having 3,2 mini, 1 CA

CA- maths
mini test- Chem,bio

omg~ im dead T__T

are you just somewhere around me and i don't realise, or just... somewhere faraway?

Happy Birthday Xin yi!!

2008-02-16T23:10:00.005+08:00

HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY XIN YI !!

met up at 10am+ den wenta cathay to watch kungfu dunk at 11.05am. The movie was kind of exaggerated but while watching the movie, you wont even bother about these exaaggerations,it will only be treated as part of the funny parts only. on the overall,it's worth watching, i give it 3.5/5

after the movie... went to plaza sing and ate at yoshinoya, the serving is not alot but...so expensive! =/ but anyway since xin yi wanted to eat,so we settled our lunch there =D

went to to look for soft toys for xin yi's fren who's birthday is coming soon, saw lot's of cute stuffs! =X after some considerations, xin yi decided to buy this monkey instead

saw this cute flat flat soft cushion,xin yi called it the TAU POK

came upon this little potato chip bag,suddenly it started dancing when we clapped at it,lol v cute

after that,stumbled upon this shop "Ice monster" and we gt attracted to the desserts they are serving, decided to share a bowl of Mango Durian Ice shed =D
look at the big serving!

costed $8.50

Xin yi taking her first mouthful of mango

after lunch,went for 2nd movie, P.S. I Love You at 3.40pm. Gosh watching this movie is a MUST. It's v touching, and nice. It's suppose to be sad throughout,BUT but, your mood will not be dampened becos there will always be some hilarious part to brush up your mood again. i shall not reveal any details of the movie here,i dunwanna become a spoiler =D it's really nice. i give it a 4.5/5 . strangely,while buying the tix, all the seats were taken, left with couple seats,so we had to take it, coincidentally, we were given seat 13,14. put tgt, 1314<< lols

the movie lasted about 2hr 15mins. after that,xin yi have to go home to celebrate with her family...so we parted ):

i met up with some frens as they were nearby,in PC bunk,i hang ard there till ard 9,den went for dinner alone at carls jr lols. Reached home at about 10pm

2008-02-15T22:37:00.002+08:00

yay! tml will be going out with xin yi deardear(not my gf) :D, almost 1 year since i last went out with her wahaha,tml will be her 15th birthday!
come on people,lets us hereby wish our XIN YI a HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY! v(^_^)v
alrite..here's the plan
Kung fu Dunk >> Ajisen >> P.S I love you/Jumper >> window shopping =D
it's gonna take a toll on my pocket but it will be worth it! :D

2008-02-14T21:42:00.002+08:00

Happy valentine's day to all!
Gave 5 sunflowers to the princess, 3 roses to calista nu er and 3 to Clarissa. Haha, it's not really an expensive gift but hope they like it,esp calista nu er cos the flowers were sent all the way to SAJC hahaha!
I received home made cookies+personalised clip from wei ying, thanks for the effort put in! really appreciated,from the packaging you can see she spent loads of time trying to piece them tgt
alrite..gt a small card+hazelnut bar from fungmei..home made chocolate from jade zai and..sweets from tammy and si min

thank you people! it's my first time receiving gifts :D very heartwarming